Look Into My Soul

Look into my soul and what lies deep inside
You don't know the secrets buried deep inside

You see my smiles and hear my joyous words I speak
But my pain is hidden in dark vast valleys you will never seek

I long for things gone from my grasp
I long for simple youth to come back from my past

My hurts and my tears could fill an ocean deep
Things I keep to myself ,I have put to quietly to sleep

You think you know me , you know what you choose to perceive
No, you haven't a clue, only what you choose to believe

I'm bold, I'm humorous, I'm sorrow, I am alone
I'm alive, I feel, I love, and I am sassy and  sweet
My complex being is someone you may never meet

I let you into only a portion of my heart
I cover myself with a shield of protection
It's my way of self preservation  with selection

I'm loyal , I'm doubtful, I'm  hesitant , I'm right, I am wrong,
I'm here by myself, fighting each day to survive and stay strong

Look into my soul , look deep, see the pain and trials?
Feel with your heart, open your eyes, stop with the denials

I am a mother ,a wife, and friend and a lost soul
I am happy ,I am sad, I am caring ,I am bold

I long for the pain and the suffering to come to an end
I long for contentment to become my best friend

Sharon